Day 4
Diet mountain was a remarkable fuel system apparently. Together with who even knows how much sugar per day, I am definitely feeling the effects of being without either backup system. When I get tired, I get TIRED. And quiet. (Um, what?!?)
I went to a campfire tonight and resisted eating s'mores. Never mind what my inner child has to say about that, 38 year old me did feel sad or...something. Was it FOMO, a condition I often possess - fear of missing out - in this case, on burnt marshmallow and sticky fingers? Was it the shared experience with my kids? Or was it the fact that food wasn't notating my life like it always does?
I'm feeling withdrawal from eating my emotions. HEY - what a great day! Let's celebrate with a cupcake. OH - rough day, let's have a cupcake. Oh hey, we just drove by that place that remains me of the time when we saw a rock that looked like a cupcake - let's have a cupcake. I am finding myself mindlessly staring at my phone in those moments when I'd have been in the pantry, in the fridge, oh hell - at the cupcake place.
Ang 1
S'mores 0
Guess I have some free time to fill with something more productive.
Habits are so hard to tackle! I admire you for being willing to change yours and be public about your journey! Way to go! -let's celebrate by DOING something fun instead of eating something fun:)
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